Fuck You Foto Series.
Posted on February 24th, 2017
It hits you at different times. Sometimes you're driving the car, other times at home along cooking dinner, maybe you're out having a drink with friends, wherever you are, you're just there and it just hits you like a tonne of bricks. You feel it first in your gut, then in your racing heart beat, your sweaty palms and the pounding in your head. Its the physical reaction that the body has. The reaction to the one and only question, "why?".
Why are you lying to me? Why are you ignoring me? Why are you sleeping with multiple other women? Why I am sitting here passively and letting you walk all over me? Why am I not demanding more, demanding respect, pounding on your door demanding these answers from you in person?
No matter how many times I let those questions circle around in my head, it just doesn't matter. The answers come and the answers go, but the answers are irrelevant. At the end of my self-obsessed insecure breakdown I'm left with nothing but two words: Fuck. You.
Enter: Fuck You Foto Series.
Realizing that I'm not alone in these feelings, I invited a handful of my favorite Austin chicks. At one point or another everyone involved in the project has shared with me about a time where they've felt enraged, confused, sad, etc about intimate relationships either past or present.
I then spent a solid three days listening to Beyonce, Taylor Swift, and Lady Gaga on repeat. Feeling totally inspired by their lyrics, I got together with the girls and built out scenes that corresponded to each set of lyrics that most resonated with us. I discussed the photographic techniques needed with Lauren, who also took ASOP Photography One with me.
Break Down of my Creative Process
- Identify internal frustration
- Choose to be creative as opposed to destructive
- Send a proposal inviting friends to collaborate
- Take inspiration from female icons
- Brainstorm session in group to outline each girl's shoot
- Break down each shoot at a technical level
- Defining lighting/equipment needs
- Structuring aperture & shutter speeds accordingly
- Establishing a list of props needed
- Do not forget mimosas.
- Keep it light, maintain energy, allow vulnerability.
- Maintain ability to adjust on the fly.
Without further ado:
I know you heard about me
The glamour shot. We played around with her reading a book titled, "Meet You at the Top", lounging at the foot of the bed, and arching her body on the floor in front of the windows. We then found the beautiful chase chair... somehow whisky made it's way into the conversation and into her hands.
Make the woman in doubt disappear
Found the truth between your lies
True Love never has to hide
I'm your darkness I'm your light
For this concept we really wanted to convey the vulnerability of putting yourself out there (like really out there) in a relationship. We didn't have access to a studio so instead used our friend's windowless bathroom, set for a long shutter time, and illuminated our subject using soft lighting highlighting only the parts of the model we were after.
I got a hundred miillion reasons to walk away, I just need one good one to stay
When the model and I originally constructed this shot, we envisioned it in a city alleyway at dawn. We imagined her barefoot in a silky black robe hanging off her shoulders, walking towards the city and looking back over her shoulder. Unfortunately the morning of the shoot was pouring rain. So much so that we had to relocate the entire shoot indoors at another model's city apartment. Since we were forced indoors, we tried a photography technique that we learned in our photography class. We were in a pitch dark room, set the shutter speed to BULB and shot for a double exposure using the same soft lighting.
What's worse, lookin' jealous or crazy? Jealous or crazy?
Or like being walked all over lately, walked all over lately
I'd rather be crazy
For my shoot I was after an element of crazy, of bizarre, or seduction. I brought the knife into the shoot to help portray the extent I would (and do) get to. I'm passionate in my relationships and I'm not afraid to show it. Breakups have never been an easy thing for me and typically leave me in a fit of jealousy or rage.
F You Foto Series: Complete
A final shot of the group, finding a way to tie in the theme "Fuck You".